Should you seek your personal truth or love? If you pick the right one first, the other will follow naturally. However, if you pick the wrong one first, then you lose them both. You have a 50/50 chance, but a lot is riding on this. So, make the right decision.
Our mind is like a computer with different levels of programming. To grow as a person, we need to maintain the software. We need to fix any programming that causes errors. Come and see how to do this safely.